A lot of people think I’m nuts. Which it’s true that I am. But I don’t know if they think I’m nuts, or I just know I’m nuts and it leads me to believe that everybody else knows it, too.

For my whole life, I’ve always known that I could get rich off my own endeavors. It’s been a fire burning in my soul since I was a child. This has driven me to places that a lot of people wouldn’t even attempt. It has also led me to being about to turn 32 and completely single with no prospects whatsoever.

I don’t know what my life has in store for me, but I’m well aware that I won’t be young forever. I’ve been blessed with genes of longevity on my mom’s side. But I don’t know if my habit of drinking beer every night is compatible with that. So it goes.

At the end of the day, I have a lot of ideas that I want to execute upon, but I don’t have that much time to do it. I have reached a point in my life where I actually see the need to hire employees to help me make my dream come true. I cannot actually develop all the things I want to develop by myself, simply because I do not have the time to do it.

Thus, the problem becomes, I don’t have money to hire developers. So, I keep coding by myself until I start making money off the code more consistently.

Data Machine is a money printer for my own business. But if I can also get it on the WordPress repository, then I am bringing a sophisticated AI processing platform to the WordPress ecosystem.

I don’t care if my friends hate AI. I don’t need to be like my friends. I’ve found that the technology has been massively beneficial to my life, and I’m going to keep using it until it gets me rich. It does bother me a bit to feel judged by my friends for being into AI, and thinking it is cool, but at the end of the day, it does not really matter to me.

All that matters to me in the end is my own life. I just want to live the life that I envision for myself. No job. The ability to freely enjoy my hobbies. Gardening. Sailing. Kayaking. Reading books. Writing fiction.

It’s just that sometimes, I just want to tell my friends about what I’m working on. But when I try to do that, and it has anything to do with AI, I feel like I’m being judged.

I’m definitely an empath. I can feel people’s thoughts and feelings. It is both a blessing and a curse.

And yet, I’m different. I’ve always known I was different. I just haven’t realized my full potential yet. I do think about how old I am and what that means. So I didn’t get rich in my 20s. I got damn close, but I didn’t quite get there.

Getting older is really weird. The things I thought I would fear at my age no longer bother me, and are replaced by different fears. Overall, my anxiety has decreased, and my knowledge is quite high.

I haven’t been able to get a tech job. And part of it is because I don’t really want a job. I want to work on what I’m working on and fucking go for it.

My roommate does not understand and I need to get out of this house. I feel that he dislikes my ambition and sees it as illegitimate. And I cannot tell if this is in my head, or me feeling the vibes. But either way, my intuition tells me to get out of this house.