Procrastination is the struggle that I fight with every single day. It’s this feeling of having so many things that I could be doing, but not wanting to do any of them. So I waste my time on pointless activities that have no bearing on my future, such as the act of writing this useless blog post — my second musing of the day.

It’s liberating to muse without direction, as much as it is crippling to procrastinate. There is a balance to be found there — a muse with direction — but we’re always on our way there, never quite reaching it.

Another consideration is that sometimes, you just need to take a break. There’s nothing wrong with stepping back. Close your laptop for the day, shut off your phone, disconnect from the world.

But there’s that nagging feeling again. Of being broke, and needing to keep working in order to have the money I need to live the life I envision after moving to Austin.

I can see the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow that is Sarai Chinwag’s Pinterest account. Even the platforms tell me to take a break, when I hit the limit on Pinterest, and I’m barred from uploading any more images until the next day.

There are only so many productive activities that you can cycle through in a given day before the brain turns to mush. So perhaps, at the end of the day, the act of procrastination, when paired with the knowledge that there is still much work to be done, is the mind’s way of taking a break when it needs to rest.